An innocent soul is quietly contemplating.

Sometimes it feels like I'm doing things to make everyone else happy. Go to college right away to make Father happy. Clean my room out to make Stepmother happy. Keep out of brother and sister hair so that they're happier without me there to burden them.

I want people to be happy. I want to see them smile, and feel like I've accomplished something. I know I'm smiling too....but for what? Their happiness? Am I happy? Or have I just become so good at pushing my own feelings aside, that I just don't have them anymore, and I'm attracting some empath spirit?

I don't know. My feelings have never been something I've understood. 'Girls are complicated.' Yeah. The fuck they are. Espically if I can't figure out my own feelings.

Ugh. I don't want to go through this discovering myself shit all over again. I already angsted all through High School. Now college wants me to rediscover myself? Great. Fucking great.

An innocent soul is feeling a lot better now.

I've got a B in English.

Life = Good.

I've gotten my Yuna figure, she is awesome and sitting on my desk. I've sent the money off for Garnet and Steiner.

I'm wearing all pink, because I'm in such a good mood right now I just couldn't bring myself to put on my usual million shades of black.

My bra is even pink. Go me. I hate this bra, but I find I don't mind it right now.

I should paint my toes pink too, as my nails are already black and it's a bitch to get that color off.

8D Good moods are good. I should hunt down catburgler and maho_kiwi tonight and see if they want to do some YRP. I want YRP!

...I think I want to play X-2. I'm just in the mood to be like 'Y! R! P! READY FOR ACTION!'

I can't figure out if this is real or just another pretend emotion, but I really don't care right now.